How I Found Out I Was A Mother

Hello there! You are either reading this because you are interested in my journey with how I learned I would be becoming a mother, or you are possibly becoming a mother yourself... am I right?

I am happy you are here no matter what the reason is! 

January 24th 2019 - I peed on the infamous stick and WHAM! those little pink stripes turned positive so quickly it made my head spin. It was around 6 a.m and Ii just had that gut feeling something was different with my body. As soon as I read that stick a solid 5 times I immediately ran out of the bathroom with tears streaming down my face and hugged my fiance. He was so confused as to why I was so hysterical that early in the morning.

After I calmed down for a few moments I showed him the pregnancy test and his jaw dropped to the floor, but his immediate response was so positive and reassuring. He told me that we would take another at home test just to be sure considering the original test was fairly old. 

He kissed me and told me everything would be alright and that he would be back soon with another test. He grabbed his coat and headed to the store. 

While he was gone I sat with my head in my hands just trying to fathom the fact that I could in fact be becoming a mother, and frankly that scared the hell out of me. I cried and cried because it just wasn't the right time to be welcoming another life into this world. 

He finally got back home, and I immediately grabbed the tests and went to the bathroom. As I was in the bathroom...alone... I found myself somewhat conflicted with my emotions and how I was actually going to feel if this test showed another positive result, but without anymore thought I just did what I had to do, and let the pregnancy test sit on the window sill right afterwards because I was so confused and scared. After about 3-4 minutes I grabbed the test off the window sill and it was yet again another positive result. I at this point was somewhat emotionless. I calmly walked out of the bathroom into the living room where my amazing fiance was waiting for me and I just nodded and showed him the test.

At this point we were just completely shocked and couldn't even imagine what the future was about to hold. 

Fast forward a couple weeks I made an appointment with a free woman's clinic because we wanted another qualified doctor to confirm these results and yet again it was positive, so we both were able to start making plans with our new found life. 

I am now 20 weeks pregnant! 

I am so proud and excited to be becoming a mother. It is one of the most rewarding journeys of life even before the baby has been born. 

This process even though happy and a miracle it has been given us a roller-coaster of emotions and has made us now as parents think very differently about how we decide to live and where we decide to go with this life. 

Here is to the first spice of life.